Final Decisions (Again).

It amuses me that when I finally feel like I've made my decision for good, I hear one more perspective that has the ability to change my mind again.

I am no longer worried about my residency decision. I feel like both of my top programs (and in fact my entire list) will provide good training. But I do hesitate. 'Twill be a relief when I will no longer be able to modify my list.

And, let's be honest. It would be nice to live on a beach for 3-5 years. And it's still an option. *grins*

I was thinking today that the ending of BSG is paralleling my end to medical school. I started watching it during my first year -- Justin tempted me with it while I was preparing for a gross anatomy exam (which was, of course, always, during the majority of my freshman year). As characters grow and change and are lost, I am curious how my own perspectives and ideals have changed during this four year period. In some ways, I really like the person I've become. But I do miss the idealism of first season, even amongst the turmoil.

Today is Valentine's Day. Justin and I have plans that involve sushi later this evening. And, perhaps, a pan of brownies.

I'm re-watching Veronica Mars. I like to think that I could be like her, but I realize too much of my marshmallow is on the outside instead of hidden on the inside like Veronica's. She has a sass that I find appealing. A show comes on before BSG that involves vampires...we always catch the closing scene during an emo moment involving a particular vampire and a blond girl always standing at the doorway of an apartment (last night involved a moment where the Love Interest and the Brooding Vampire (BV) were caressing both sides of a wooden door, unable to reach out and touch one another while the BV narrates the moment by saying he cannot open the door because he fears he will hurt her -- gag). All this to say, the actor who plays Logan Ecchols (Jason Dohring) is apparently a "best friend" vampire in the show. And now, I am vaguely interested in the sappy vampire show, because I like Logan in Veronica Mars. What can I say -- I have a thing for bad boys.

Suppose I have nothing of any real interest to post today. I spent a week in the state hospital with troubled adolescents. I watched a Japanese film (Ikiru) in my Medicine Through Literature class -- I highly recommend it. And I have started studying for Step 3. Same ol', same ol'.